chris's journal

life goes on... slowly

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 00:48:47 GMT

hello everyone... its been a while since i was last online, huh??? well, i texted tabby when i got my phone back (like a week ago) and when my parents found out they freaked and told BOTH of us not to contact each other again... so i miss her like CRAZY, and i cant even TALK to her... but life goes on... shes probably already been with multiple people already, and there was no chance of us being together again anyways, but some small part of me hoped... i dont know WHAT i hoped.

on a BRIGHTER subject... im taking my ged test on the 20th! YAY! im kinda sad though, because afterwards, i wont have anything to do... ill just be spending my days working or lazing around.

talk to you soon everyone. i hope.

Writer's Block: Forgive and forget?

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 01:43:10 GMT

Do you tend to forgive and forget or hold grudges? What is the longest you've ever stayed angry with someone? Is there anything the other person could say or do to win back your friendship and trust?

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im a very forgiving person, it takes something REALLY serious to keep me from forgiving someone.

hello everyone!

Tue, 27 Oct 2009 01:17:43 GMT

okay, so since i last posted.... i've finished math in my ged classes, MOSTLY gotten over tabby(i doubt it'll ever be 100%), gotten the swine flu, and.... well, not much else, really... lol butit seems like a lot when i go through it.

*EDIT* oh! COMPLETELY FORGOT: i got my phone back too!!! YAY!!!

and as far as the swine flu goes, it feels JUST like the flu, it has the same symptoms, and the ONLY difference between the swine flu & seasonal flu, is the genetic make-up is different.... so.... YEAH... lol

i will PROBABLY get my license this wednesday, or the next, because we got a new car(a 98 suburban) and i can take the test in it, so i SHOULD pass it.... YAY!!!!!!!!

not much else to say... so i'll talk later, bye!!! :)

controlling, much???

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 23:32:40 GMT

im TIRED of my parents being so over protective/controlling... my mom LITERALLY told me i wasnt allowed to get into an online relationship... WTF??? um, i know im only 16, but still, thats too much. i mean, shes reading EVERYTHING i post, i cant get on the phone without my parents permission, i cant get ONLINE without her permission, im suprised they let me BREATH without asking first.

pissed doesnt BEGIN to describe this... im tired of my parents, and if i didnt have a $900 phone bill im still working on, id be LONG GONE by now... i want to save up at LEAST $1,500, and when i get there i want to leave. period.

okay, umm.... ill talk to you all later

Writer's Block: Bucket list

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 23:21:29 GMT

If you found out you only had six months left to live, what would you do with the rest of your life? Do you have a "bucket list"?

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i don't know... i don't have a bucket list, so i probably wouldnt anything special...

hi. PLEASE read this everyone

Sun, 18 Oct 2009 22:33:58 GMT

i need to apologize to all my friends, because when i was with tabby, i spent what little time i had online w/ her, and i left you all in the dust. im sorry, and i hope you all forgive me.

my world is upside down... tabby dumped me, i have to share a bed with ben till we move, PLUS, its like FREEZING cold, and IF i pass my test im DONE w/ math in my pre ged studies... lol, so, im really confused right now.... in general...

ttyl everyone, ill post again soon. -chris

i don't know...

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 21:45:08 GMT

im so fucking hurt right now...

im tired of being hurt like this. she didnt even sound sorry on the phone...

i dont know... i just want to scream right now.

crying...

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 21:29:34 GMT

um, she just broke up with me... she said she still loves her ex, and their getting back together... i so hurt right now. i don't know what to say.

what the fuck ever. post later when im not crying & emotional.

Writer's Block: Gone Too Far

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 03:09:50 GMT

What is the scariest incident with drugs or alcohol you’ve witnessed or personally experienced? How did it change you?

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my half-brother-in-law was high, and he took my nephew for a ride on his harley... he lost control of the bike @ 50 MPH's, and it changed me immensely. luckily they both only needed stitches, but.....

im kinda hurt...

Mon, 12 Oct 2009 02:35:11 GMT

um, i should be posting this on LDR-UTMO, but... Tabby said she wanted to date a girl AND me at the same time. she said she wouldnt, but im hurt that she wants to...
i dont know. maybe we're not as serious as i thought.. i don't know. um, yeah.

we sold the church property tonight, i was so... distracted by what tabby said to tell her about it.

AND im selling my truck... for $850 dollars... so... yeah i don't know.

talk later everyone

HI, ALL!

Sat, 10 Oct 2009 04:10:09 GMT

hey everyone!

i've been thnking about it, and i want to get a degree in architectry(i THINK i misspelled that...), if i can find a school that offers that near tabby, if not mayhbe engineering? i've herad it looks good on a resume, and im pretty good w/ numbers, so... yeah. lol im still thinking.

i miss Tabby so much right now. im in a cuddly mood & want to hold her SO BAD...

not much else to say. schools going well, & im trying to lose weight, but its hard. im an emotional eater, and ive been kinda depressed w/ the moving thing, but in reality, i shouldnt be upset about moving to NC, it wont change things w/ me & Tabby, except the amount of the lane ticket. lol not that it matters, id pay a million dollars to spend 5 minutes with her.

okay, i'll see you all later, i love you tabby!

-chris

much calmer now...

Wed, 07 Oct 2009 00:59:34 GMT

okay, im feeling better now, i just had a real PMS day yesterday,(yes guys have cycles too, just less noticable) lol, and i went from angry to sad & then back again.

im watvching the new episode of NCIS w/ the family... its a good show, kinda cliche, but good.

im reading a book called Dream Hunter by sherrilyn kenyon, its good, but im only about 30 pages into it, so we'll see.

i've been thinking about it, and the only way i'll be able to talk to tabby on the way to NC, is calling her and E-mail when im near wi-fi... so... yeah. but that's IF we move. we havent gotten a call from the potential buyers yet, their waiting for us to cave and call THEM to make a lower offfer... "the psychic status of the business world" right??? lol

i miss Tabby alot. all i want to do is hold her tight & be with her, & have the ability to protect her... well... maybe a little kissing and *AHEM* would be nice LOL.

ttyl everyone. *HERES TO A BEAUTIFUL REDHEAD IN SLC* tabby, you ROCK

what the hell!?!?

Tue, 06 Oct 2009 00:00:16 GMT

im kind of stunned. we might sell the house and church THIS WEEK. then we'll move to NC, and IF(BIG if, but still) it all happens the only way to meet tabby is to fly here to NC to meet.
it would be WELL worth the money, but i want to be CLOSER to her, not farther away....

im kinda emotional right now. moms in a moving craze & wants to get everything ready, ive lived here my WHOLE life, im just now getting on a roll in my GED class(im about half through... FINALLY), im being pushed to sell my truck, and im really fucking moody.

all i want right now is to get my license, get my GED, save up some money & move to be w/ tabby, THEN go to a college & get some form of degree. after/during that get a job, and as far as me & tabby go WHO KNOWS? lol i just hope we last a LONG TIME... maybe a ring involved? i dont know yet...

im just so confused... i dont know why im so afraid of change...

oh, and i finished another darkhunter book: unleash the night... VERY GOOD, i love those books!

okay, ill post again soon. i love you tabby, i miss you immensely <3

-chris

hi everyone!!!

Wed, 30 Sep 2009 02:40:42 GMT

hey! im o for a little while before bed. YAY! i hope you all missed me! okay, i know you didnt..... lol

HAPPY B-DAY GOREWHORRER! lol just thought id say that because have NO idea when ill be on again.

GRRR iv been literally LONGING for tabby recently... i want to hold her and my love for her is kinda scaring me...

*KISS* i love you SO MUCH tabby, i got your memory card today and i LOVED it, thank you, ill post more soon.

ttyl, i love you baby <3

hi!!!

Wed, 23 Sep 2009 02:55:43 GMT

hey everyone! long time no post!

I added a couple new friends. YAY!

GOD, i miss Tabby SO MUCH. ive never felt this kind of feeling, its so weird, im longing for you tabby, LITERALLY, i want to hear the calm of your voice.

iv got to make this quick. :(

im sick to my tummy. i dont know if its something i ate, or the "sickies" leaving my system. THAT or im sick to my stomach without tabby <3 all are very possible.

i love you tabby, i sent you a letter with the memory card in it, and my parents were angry because i didnt let them see it or read it before i mailed it. but i WAS walking home, and its not my fault. i was in a hurry & wanted to send it before they shipped the mail for the day.

im reading a few more sherryiln kenyon books, i DEMOLISHED sins of the night in about 6 hours and im already halfway through the dark side of the moon. i LOVE her books.

*kiss* i love you tabby, i cant wait till im allowed to call you and hear your voice.

talk later everyone :)

lots to say, no time

Tue, 15 Sep 2009 17:55:50 GMT

long story short: phone got taken away, im writnig tabby daily, i miss her immensely, im sick and have no energy, and im kinda sad because i havent gotten a letter in 5ish days(weekend not incuded).

MWUAH! i love you tabby, my parents have my password to live journal, so if i dont sound like myself its them.

ill post later everyone

AAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sat, 05 Sep 2009 00:18:23 GMT

we lost all 5 lawns to a 13 year old kid.

im taking my GED, its going good, ive got classes tuesday-friday(none monday because of labor day). GRRR nothing to post about here. ill be posting on ldr_utmo.

Writer's Block: Doh!

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 22:35:41 GMT

What is the dumbest thing you've ever done?

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i threw a hammer threw a window.... lol

hey everyone!

Sat, 29 Aug 2009 20:36:28 GMT

okay, im feeling very lethargic today, sooo im gonna be kinda boring(hate to disappoint).

i dont need ANY classes/assignments in english (YAY!!!!) but i need to work on math... SO.... yeah.

i have NOTHING to post on here, so im going to go to ldr_utmo & post about tabby <3

G.E.D. school, and a little work

Fri, 28 Aug 2009 01:12:35 GMT

hey everyone! im sorry i havent posted recently... ive been busy taking my ged.... i wasnt going to take it for a while, but tabby inspired me to take it and now im taking classes to acquire it...... i should get it i a month or so, and then im going to apply to macc (moberly area community college), ill stay at macc untill i turn 18 then transfer to Utah to be with tabby. or thats the plan anyways.

i worked with dad today, it wasnt too bad but it was a liitle hard at first. but i got rolling and it wasnt so bad....

im going to go to classes tomorrow, im kind of anxious to get through it and get my GED and then get an associates..... we''ll see....

GRRR its raining again and im going to have TONS of lawns to mow.........

i LOVE those blinkies!!!

Sun, 23 Aug 2009 01:42:11 GMT

the subject has NOTHING to dowith the post, BTW

okay, im feeling down... i havent mowed or worked in DAYS and i feel lazy.....

im reading a couple dark hunter books, and the 1st one(devil may cry) is GREAT!

im getting my G.E.D.... im taking the orientation on monday, and im kind of nervous, i dont know what will happen.... im PROBABLY behind in geometry, algebra, and science, and MAYBE english.... so just about EVERYTHING.... i feel so stupid sometimes :(

thats all thats going on, ill post again soon, bye

hello again....

Fri, 21 Aug 2009 03:58:13 GMT

hello, im sorry about not posting much recently...

im getting really serious with tabby, ill post about it in our journal.

so, its been REALLY rainy recently, so much so i couldnt mow any lawns, and dad didnt have any work, SO iv been sitting on my hands doing NOTHING.... its okay though, because i have xbox to keep me busy hahaha :p just kidding

okay, i know that was a REALLY short post, but i dont have much to post about... so, ill see you all later :)

tabby and i have a shared account

Wed, 19 Aug 2009 16:04:16 GMT

so add us at http://ldr_utmo.livejournal.com

we did it so we dont spam you guys with posts about each other.... but if you add us we'll spam you on our shared account... so add us please :)

lol i stole this from tabby

Wed, 19 Aug 2009 15:18:20 GMT

You're currently listening to?
-- some music in a movie

How are you currently feeling?
-- uncomfortable about tabby's friend but im sure ill get over it, im just too innocent

Do you regret anything you've done recently?
-- yeah, not meeting tabby the other wednesday

Do you think you can last in a relationship for six months?
-- YES!!! for sure

Who did you last say love you to?
-- tabby

Are there any stressful situations in your life?
-- LDR. a few others

When was the last time you talked on aim?
-- never

Is your life simple or complicated?
-- really complicated when i explain it

Someone knocks on your window at 2 AM, who would it be?
-- i dont know till i answer it

Does the person you last kissed still like you?
-- not applicable!

Do you remember the FIRST time you kissed the LAST person you kissed?
-- still not applicable

Is there someone you wish you were still close with?
-- not really

What is your favorite memory?
--telling tabby i loved her and hearing her say it back

Do you miss your past?
-- no

Have you ever sent a text to the wrong person?
-- Yes, hahaha

Are you stubborn?
-- yep sometimes.

Think back 5 months ago, were you single? who were u with?
-- i thiught i was with someone, butshe was a bitch

Who did you last hug?
-- my mom

Have you ever dated the same person twice?
-- No.

What would you do if you found out the person you liked had a girlfriend?
-- id be very sad and get depressed.

Have you held hands with anyone in the past 76 hours?
-- No.

Does anything hurt on your body right now?
-- nah not really

you and your boyfriend/girlfriend fight a lot?
-- Never. Yet, lol.

Do you want a relationship with someone?
-- im happily in a relationship with tabby

Have you ever liked someone who didn't like you back?
-- yes a few times

What was the best thing that happened today?
-- hearing tabby say i love you, and masturbating, hahaha

Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile?
-- yes tabby

Do you have a friend you can tell stuff to and you're sure they wont tell?
-- yes

Ever fallen backwards on a chair?
-- yes turned bright red when it happened

Would you ever kiss someone who has done drugs before?
-- No

What does your last text say and who is it from?
-- "its not even ringing!" from tabby

I bet you miss somebody right now...
-- Very much so :(

Are you wearing a ring? If you are, who gave it to you?
-- no

Did you ever have a girl best friend?
-- When I was younger

What were you doing at 8 this morning?
-- uh-oh, i know what i was i doing

Do you have a box where you keep all your really important things?
-- No

Are you tan?
-- yeah , iv got a farmers tan that stopped aat my sleeves

Did you dress up on Halloween?
-- Nope.

Think of the person who has hurt you most in the past year, who is it?
-- Um. kerryanne.

How many times have you dyed your hair?
-- Never.

Have you ever felt replaced?
-- Yes, thanks to kerryanne

What are you wearing tomorrow?
-- shirt and jeans

Are you hiding something from someone?
-- yes

Do you own a studded belt from Hot Topic?
-- no

Who is your number one on myspace?
-- tabby of course

Has anyone ever hung up on you?
-- yes on accident

Will tomorrow be better than today?
-- I hope so

Can you count past 100?
-- o.O of course

Any upcoming vacations?
-- IDK

Do you care what people think of you?
-- depends on the person.

Have you ever touched an elephant before?
-- yes when i was like 8

Where is the person you currently have feelings for?
-- 3 states away

Your ex calls you to hang out what do you say?
-- fuck off

What was your worst mistake in your life?
-- Alot

Last time you had butterflies in your stomach?
-- last night when i talked to tabitha

How was today?
-- It's been good so far

Anywhere you'd rather be right now?
-- holding tabby

Are you waiting for anyone to call you?
-- Nah

Could you go a day without eating?
-- Probably, but not today!

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name starts with a K?
--no

Have you ever kissed anyone whose name started with a J?
-- no

Does anyone hate you?
-- Probably

Have you ever seen your best friend cry?
-- no

Is anything upsetting you right now?
-- a little bi but ill getover it

Who was the last person you cried in front of and when?
-- not sure

Who do you not get along with?
-- not many people

Does anyone know your password besides you?
-- no i hope not

Did you have a good day yesterday?
-- Yes very, i got tabby's letter

Last person you saw shirtless?
-- some chick in 1941, but it didnt show anything

Would you ever date anyone your parents disapproved of?
-- Yes of course...

Are you online?
-- HAHAHAHAHAAHA this doesn't deserve an answer

Have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past 24 hours?
-- no never, how many kissing questions are on this, i have NEVER kissed anyone

What're your initials?
-- cmp

How old are you next year?
-- 17

Are you happy at the moment?
-- generally yes

If you were at reasonable age, would you prefer a baby boy or girl?
-- girl?

Has the last person you texted ever kissed you before? Who is it?
-- not yet, sadly :( tabby

If you had a daughter, what would you name her?
-- id have think abuot it

Does the thought of having children scare you?
-- No

Have you been a happy, angry, or sad person lately?
-- yeah, all three

Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to?
-- yes

How about the same sex?
-- nope

What did you say last?
-- talking to tabby at the moment

Do you drink beer?
-- no, i hate the smell of beer

Have your brothers or sisters ever told you that you were adopted?
-- yes but they were kidding

Who introduced you to your boyfriend or girlfriend?
-- we met on LJ ha

Who is the last person you had a phone conversation with?
-- im talking to tabby right now

Do you believe teenagers can be in love?
-- yes

What do you think of when you hear the word "meow"?
-- cats, duh,

What are you going to do after this?
-- uummm post on my shared account with tabby

Do you have any tan lines?
-- yes

Has anyone ever sang to you?
-- no

Has anyone ever given you roses?
-- no

If you were abandoned in the wilderness, would you survive?
-- yes, for a long time

What movie do you want to see?
-- the time travelers wife

101 in 1001

Sun, 16 Aug 2009 19:45:12 GMT

okay, so the idea is to make a list of 101 you want to accomplish in 1001 days. heres my list, it ends may 9th 2012:

1. meet an online friend from another country
2. make a friend from my neighborhood
3. acquire a pen pal
4. write 50 letters to people in different states (0/50)
5. compliment 10 strangers (0/10)
6. meet ANY online friend
7. talk to a stranger about more than weather
8. ~~fall in love with someone who loves me back~~
9. move out of my parents house
10. get a friend to do 101 with me!
11. go without internet WILLINGLY for two weeks (0/14 days)
12. learn to drive a "stick"
13. write a letter to someone im related to, but dont know
14. collect 5 library cards from different cties (1/5)
15. get a bank account
16. go out on a picnic date in the park
17. go to coppage family reunion
18. write a letter to my future self, one paragraph per month
19. drink no caffiene for two weeks (0/14 days)
20. wrie 5 GOOD songs (1/5)
21. start and finish writing a novel
22. learn to speak spanish
23. learn to speak french
24. get my truck's body looking good
25. learn to play guitar
26. learn to play drums BETTER
27. record a song
28. get my GED
29. apply for college
30. go to utah
31. get pics/autograph from musician/celebrity
32. learn to tie a tie/bowtie
33. sit on a rooftop on a starry night
34. ~~meet someone special to watch the sunset with~~
35. watch the sunset with someone special and then get up and watch the sunrise
36. spend a weekend in vegas
37. save $2,000 dollars in my bank account
38. create a budget and KEEP it
39. get/share an apartment
40. buy furniture for my apartment
41. save my change for a year(0/12 months)
42. see the grand canyon
43. visit friends and family
44. go to new york (must eat a hot dog from a street vendor)
45. go to california
46. go to england
47. visist scotland
48. plan a hypothetical hike across europe
49. see the pyramids
50. go on a random roadtrip with no destination
51. lose 5 lbs
52. lose 10 lbs
53. lose another 10 lbs
54. lose another 10 lbs
55. lift weights three times a week for a month
56. watch AFI's top 100 film list
57. go to 10 concerts (0/10)
58. go to a dance club
59. go to a comedy show
60. perform at a comedy show
61. try to get backstage at a concert
62. read 50 classic novles (0/50)
63. go to a book signing and get my favorite author to sign a book
64. read a random horror book from the library
65. read a random romance book from the library
66. read a random sci-fi book from the library
67. read a random erotic book from the library
68. PERSONAL
69. send flowers to someone "just because"
70. revamp my warddrobe
71. try a new hairstyle
72. write 50 anonymous post-it notes and put them EVERYWHERE (0/50)
73. learn a new word every week for a year (0/52)
74. try 5 foods i didnt previously like to see if my tastebuds changed (0/5)
75. get rid of stuff i dont like/use anymore
76. write a random letter to a random person i dont know
77. kiss a girl in the rain (she has to kiss me back)
78. find 101 things that make me happy (0/101)
79. write in my journal every day for a month
80. post in my live journal every day for a month
81. drink my first "adult beverage"
82. get my license
83. kiss tabitha
84. fly in a plane
85. get a real blanket (i have a spiderman blanket iv had for 2 years.... it doesnt cover my feet)
86. buy an MP3 player mine broke)
87. visit the art museum in kansas city
88. visit the saint louis zoo
89. learn to ride horses
90. get a manual for a '78 chevy
91. throw a REAL birthday party
92. diet for 1001 days
93. go on a camping trip with family, friends, or someone special
94. try an exotic food(like curry, or es cargo, or sushi)
95. replace the window in my bedroom
96. buy a suit
97. get ANOTHER friend to do 101 in 1001
98. write the blueprints for an invention i wont really invent
99. save a dollar for everything on the list i completee
100. spend that money on something i REALLY want
101. throw a party, YOU FINISHED 101 in 1001! YAY!!!!!!