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hello everyone... its been a while since i was last online, huh??? well, i texted tabby when i got my phone back (like a week ago) and when my parents found out they freaked and  told BOTH of us not to contact each other again... so i miss her like CRAZY, and i cant even TALK to her... but life goes on... shes probably already been with multiple people already, and there was no chance of us being together again anyways, but some small part of me hoped... i dont know WHAT i hoped.

on a BRIGHTER subject... im taking my ged test on the 20th! YAY! im kinda sad though, because afterwards, i wont have anything to do... ill just be spending my days working or lazing around.

talk to you soon everyone. i hope.

im a very forgiving person, it takes something REALLY serious to keep me from forgiving someone.

okay, so since i last posted....  i've finished math in my ged classes, MOSTLY gotten over tabby(i doubt it'll ever be 100%), gotten the swine flu, and.... well, not much else, really... lol butit seems like a lot when i go through it.

*EDIT* oh! COMPLETELY FORGOT: i got my phone back too!!! YAY!!!

and as far as the swine flu goes, it feels JUST like the flu, it has the same symptoms, and the ONLY difference between the swine flu & seasonal flu, is the genetic make-up is different.... so.... YEAH... lol

i will PROBABLY get my license this wednesday, or the next, because we got a new car(a 98 suburban) and i can take the test in it, so i SHOULD pass it.... YAY!!!!!!!!

not much else to say... so i'll talk later, bye!!! :)

im TIRED of my parents being so over protective/controlling... my mom LITERALLY told me i wasnt allowed to get into an online relationship... WTF??? um, i know im only 16, but still, thats too much. i mean, shes reading EVERYTHING i post, i cant get on the phone without my parents permission, i cant get ONLINE without her permission, im suprised they let me BREATH without asking first.

pissed doesnt BEGIN to describe this... im tired of my parents, and if i didnt have a $900 phone bill im still working on, id be LONG GONE by now... i want to save up at LEAST $1,500, and when i get there i want to leave. period.

okay, umm.... ill talk to you all later

i don't know... i don't have a bucket list, so i probably wouldnt anything special...

i need to apologize to all my friends, because when i was with tabby, i spent what little time i had online w/ her, and i left you all in the dust.  im sorry, and i hope you all forgive me.

my world is upside down... tabby dumped me, i have to share a bed with ben till we move, PLUS, its like FREEZING cold, and IF i pass my test im DONE w/ math in my pre ged studies... lol, so, im really confused right now.... in general...

ttyl everyone, ill post again soon.      -chris

im so fucking hurt right now...

im tired of being hurt like this. she didnt even sound sorry on the phone...

i dont know... i just want to scream right now.

um, she just broke up with me... she said she still loves her ex, and their getting back together... i so hurt right now.  i don't know what to say.

what the fuck ever. post later when im not crying & emotional.

my half-brother-in-law was high, and he took my nephew for a ride on his harley... he lost control of the bike @ 50 MPH's, and it  changed me immensely. luckily they both only needed stitches, but.....

um, i should be posting this on LDR-UTMO, but... Tabby said she wanted to date a girl AND me at the same time. she said she wouldnt, but im hurt that she wants to...
i dont know. maybe we're not as serious as i thought.. i don't know. um, yeah.

we sold the church property tonight, i was so... distracted by what tabby said to tell her about it.

AND im selling my truck... for $850 dollars... so... yeah i don't know.

talk later everyone

hey everyone!

i've been thnking about it, and i want to get a degree in architectry(i THINK i misspelled that...), if i can find a school that offers that near tabby, if not mayhbe engineering? i've herad it looks good on a resume, and im pretty good w/ numbers, so... yeah. lol im still thinking.

i miss Tabby so much right now. im in a cuddly mood & want to hold her SO BAD...

not much else to say. schools going well, & im trying to lose weight, but its hard. im an emotional eater, and ive been kinda depressed w/ the moving thing, but in reality, i shouldnt be upset about moving to NC, it wont change things w/ me & Tabby, except the amount of the lane ticket. lol not that it matters, id pay a million dollars to spend 5 minutes with her.

okay, i'll see you all later, i love you tabby!

-chris

okay, im feeling better now, i just had a real PMS day yesterday,(yes guys have cycles too, just less noticable) lol, and i went from angry to sad & then back again.

im watvching the new episode of NCIS w/ the family... its a good show, kinda cliche, but good.

im reading a book called Dream Hunter by sherrilyn kenyon, its good, but im only about 30 pages into it, so we'll see.

i've been thinking about it, and the only way i'll be able to talk to tabby on the way to NC, is calling her and E-mail when im near wi-fi... so... yeah. but that's IF we move. we havent gotten a call from the potential buyers yet, their waiting for us to cave and call THEM to make a lower offfer... "the psychic status of the business world" right??? lol

i miss Tabby alot. all i want to do is hold her tight & be with her, & have the ability to protect her... well... maybe a little kissing and *AHEM* would be nice LOL. 

ttyl everyone. *HERES TO A BEAUTIFUL REDHEAD IN SLC* tabby, you ROCK 

im kind of stunned. we might sell the house and church THIS WEEK. then we'll move to NC, and IF(BIG if, but still) it all happens the only way to meet tabby is to fly here to NC to meet.
it would be WELL worth the money, but i want to be CLOSER to her, not farther away....

im kinda emotional right now. moms in a moving craze & wants to get everything ready, ive lived here my WHOLE life, im just now getting on a roll in my GED class(im about half through... FINALLY), im being pushed to sell my truck, and im really fucking moody.

all i want right now is to get my license, get my GED, save up some money & move to be w/ tabby, THEN go to a college & get some form of degree. after/during that get a job, and as far as me & tabby go WHO KNOWS? lol i just hope we last a LONG TIME... maybe a ring involved? i dont know yet...

im just so confused... i dont know why im so afraid of change...

oh, and i finished another darkhunter book: unleash the night... VERY GOOD, i love those books!

okay, ill post again soon. i love you tabby, i miss you immensely <3

-chris

hey! im o for a little while before bed. YAY! i hope you all missed me! okay, i know you didnt..... lol

HAPPY B-DAY GOREWHORRER! lol just thought id say that because  have NO idea when ill be on again.

GRRR iv been literally LONGING for tabby recently... i want to hold her and my love for her is kinda scaring me...

*KISS* i love you SO MUCH tabby, i got your memory card today and i LOVED it, thank you, ill post more soon.

ttyl, i love you baby <3

hey everyone! long time no post! 

I added a couple new friends. YAY!

GOD, i miss Tabby SO MUCH. ive never felt this kind of feeling, its so weird, im longing for you tabby, LITERALLY, i want to hear the calm of your voice.

iv got to make this quick. :(

im sick to my tummy. i dont know if its something i ate, or the "sickies" leaving my system. THAT or im sick to my stomach without tabby <3  all are very possible.

i love you tabby, i sent you a letter with the memory card in it, and my parents were angry because i didnt let them see it or read it before i mailed it. but i WAS walking home, and its not my fault. i was in a hurry & wanted to send it before they shipped the mail for the day. 

im reading a few more sherryiln kenyon books, i DEMOLISHED sins of the night in about 6 hours and im already halfway through the dark side of the moon. i LOVE her books.

*kiss* i love you tabby, i cant wait till im allowed to call you and hear your voice.

talk later everyone :)

long story short: phone got taken away, im writnig tabby daily, i miss her immensely, im sick and have no energy, and im kinda sad because i havent gotten a letter in 5ish days(weekend not incuded).

MWUAH! i love you tabby, my parents have my password to live journal, so if i dont sound like myself its them.

ill post later everyone

we lost all 5 lawns to a 13 year old kid.

im taking my GED, its going good, ive got classes tuesday-friday(none monday because of labor day). GRRR nothing to post about here. ill be posting on ldr_utmo.

i threw a hammer threw a window.... lol

okay, im feeling very lethargic today, sooo im gonna be kinda boring(hate to disappoint).

i dont need ANY classes/assignments in english (YAY!!!!) but i need to work on math... SO.... yeah.

i have NOTHING to post on here, so im going to go to ldr_utmo & post about tabby <3

hey everyone! im sorry i havent posted recently... ive been busy taking my ged.... i wasnt going to take it for a while, but tabby inspired me to take it and now im taking classes to acquire it...... i should get it i a month or so, and then im going to apply to macc (moberly area community college), ill stay at macc untill i turn 18 then transfer to Utah to be with tabby. or thats the plan anyways.

i worked with dad today, it wasnt too bad but it was a liitle hard at first. but i got rolling and it wasnt so bad....

im going to go to classes tomorrow, im kind of  anxious to get through it and get my GED and then get an associates..... we''ll see....
 
GRRR its raining again and im going to have TONS of lawns to mow.........